Much of what I want to say I shared on Facebook Live last Thursday at the usual time of 4:30. However, I know many people don’t look at Facebook much, so I want to repeat it here, if only because I want to make sure everyone knows how grateful we are for all your kind and loving comments in response to the rather lengthy email we sent out about a week ago sharing some possible scenarios for our future.
If you were one of them, please forgive me for not responding back to you personally for there were just too many for that to be possible. And how could I respond to one and not all? JoAnn and I read them all and felt incredibly loved and supported.
But then, as if that wasn’t enough, something else wonderful happened. After I sent that email, Shari let it be known that in order to fly to England as soon as possible, so as to begin the CellSonic treatment which holds terrific promise of an immediate healing for my cancer, I really needed to get an upgrade to business class, so I could lie flat for the duration. My very recent surgery precluded me sitting upright in a cabin class seat for 8+ hours. As my business partner she is very aware that having had to cancel all our events these last two years, money was tight. So she floated the idea that people might help us out by donating a little money to cover the cost of an upgrade, not just for me but for Joann as well, since Shari knew I would not be able to stand the idea of her sitting back there in the main cabin while I luxuriated in business class.
Well, the response was incredible and beyond our wildest dreams. It was more than sufficient to cover the cost of us both being able to upgrade to business class. And at this time of year, that is not cheap.
I must admit that the response was so amazing that I have had to work really hard on my worthiness issues and my willingness to receive. In fact, I couldn’t help feeling embarrassed and even a bit guilty about having been blessed so abundantly by so many people for what might seem a non-emergency situation.
What made it easier though, was reading the messages that accompanied every donation. It became clear that it wasn’t about the money per se, or even whether it was an emergency or not. It was really about people taking the opportunity to express their love and appreciation for JoAnn and I and how we have made a difference in their life. It was a big, big THANK YOU. And that we can accept with humility and thankfulness for having had the chance to contribute to your life in some way.
As I read through the messages that came with each of the donations, I felt the truth in the principle that giving and receiving are the same and for me to feel guilty or embarrassed about receiving the money was to deny people the pleasure it has given them to respond in this way. It’s up to me to receive with an open heart and gratitude knowing that it was an expression of the love they felt for us and for us to bathe in that love without reservation.
It’s funny how things come full circle. When JoAnn and I were doing the cancer retreats back in the 90s, it was hard to get people to come. One of the reasons was that people had spent all their money on doctors and hospital treatments so had little or nothing with which to pay for the 5-day retreat.
I then would say, that is not a problem. Ask someone or a few people to donate money to you to pay for the retreat. I made the point that when you have cancer, people really want to help and always feel shy about offering, but give them the chance to pay for the cost of your retreat, and they would jump at the opportunity. It would make them feel so good. People would love to support you in this way. They all said, “Oh, I could never ask for money.” My response to them was, “Then keep your cancer. Because that’s why you have it. You don’t love yourself enough.”
So that’s it. On Facebook Live I went on to talk about self-love in relation to being able to receive and promptly lost it. That is the core issue for most of us, isn’t it? Thank you for pushing that button for me, guys. I will be working on loving myself more now.
Anyway, that said, we have booked our tickets and leave on July 11th. I had hoped it would be sooner than that, but that was the earliest flight we could get once I had permission from my surgeon that I could fly. But I will be doing a lot of healing work between now and then so I will be 100% receptive to the treatment the moment we arrive, plus it will give my son some time to get really familiar with the machine.
I will keep you posted on the progress. Stay tuned.
And once again, thank you, thank you, thank you.